.just go hope for it.

2007-08-18T18:10:00.001-07:00

this week has passed on too slow to help us escape from monday.
it was really a disappointment and i dread looking back, but my thoughts just can't seem to stop flashing monday's game. it's like a tape recorder rewinding back and back again

sigh, i know it's time to move on but i just cant do it

i know nobody really puts the blame on anyone but the scene of the last minute missed header just keeps playing in the back of my head.
but i guess we can look further ahead towards jc.

everyone had high expectations of us winning the shield. and after we lost, we had to endure their little bits of taunting here and there. but i know they have tried their best not to show it.
especially the teachers.

a pity it's our last year and we can't do anything to next year's game.
i've thought about this long and hard and i know that i want to join soccer in JC.

thought my libero dream still looms large.

2006-11-16T16:56:00.000-08:00

k, i've abandoned this place for so long and since i've got nth to do i'll just come and do some typing

erm. first theres the youth cup and shit la, i was dropped. and coach lost all faith in me and i need more practice.

ok, since it's over. kiral and me did continue to go to soccer training. haha sry all. but we decided that vball must be, should be and is more impt and therefore, has stopped going for like 3 sessions.

and, i must start working on my jiao bu. it's wrong

according to zj it will help me if i change it

i'm freaking bored here and maybe i should continue doing pt. i've played all the maps that we've got in war3 with mostly kl this 2 days until we've got nuthing left to play.

k, and gd luck everyone for their trg and erm have fun for the hols.

fly.

2006-10-21T18:18:00.000-07:00

play, win and rock!

fun leh.

yo

2006-09-12T19:43:00.000-07:00

i think it's great, that some people have a higher order of thinking than others.

in this way, it sort of balances out the type of people around u..

and it was junnies who created the desire in me to blog, i mean it's really not easy to convince everyone that wat u argue is correct.
some would find that wat u've just written is just like any other piece of crap, which not only is not worth one's attention. but also something that must be criticized.

and after reading his previous and current post, many thoughts just flew in. i'm just glad that he treasures those that are worthy of.

be it memories, experiences or the people around u.

some things u just can't forget, no matter how long time has passed. while some things just goes away, even when it just happened a moment ago.

it's weird, that it's hard to find people that really understands, that all the buzz is superficial.

and certain people have changed.

i dunno how to describe it, but i can only say this.

see things simply, esp those around u.

a heart-warming smile just brings joy, unlimited joy to the receiver.

i mean not only to treat them equally but to also see them from another perspective.

i miss many things, and i still remember many

the times after track where i played street with junnies and zhu hui;

the ri match;

when it was announced that i was in the c div jumps team for nationals;
at the same time i felt the disappointment in junnies, seriously i would have gave up the spot for u. your form was better and i knew i would not meet expectations. but the best thing was that u
encouraged me-

i said 'sry'
u said 'nvm la, if u do your best it's already better than me going'

if u forgot, u said something like that. and WTF, it was super important to me

the first time i came to vball trg;

the turn i made at court when zhu hui was at the side of it;
he said 'nice turn!'
haha, it was memorable for some reason.

probably cos he's going soon.

the court sessions during night time, at 7 plus where it was FUNNN;

the sec 1 tournament where we went to the finals;

the school life during sec 1 and 2;

the last day zhu hui was at school, sept 9 2005. i played court with him at the afternoon but junnies couldn't make it, he then played with junnies after track trg that day. it was a friday.
they then went to kap, and had hell lots of fun. qihan was there too.

and i wasn't. fuck

cos of ortus nite, i rushed to ortus room after trg after looking at zhu hui one last time and waved him gd bye. he walked off with his back facing me and i still vividly remember how it looks like.

i hate that ortus nite. it deprived me of that last chance to play with both of them as a team.

the bus trips that we took together;

and probably many more other experiences

i

2006-09-06T11:34:00.001-07:00

i've got nuthing to do now, despite the hw that awaits me later

and coupled up with some stuff that came to my mind afer reading emo kia tong hang's post, i'm here.

anw, i noe it's quite late to post this since it happened 2 days ago.

STEVE IRWIN has passed on. for all the memories of crocodiles, he was stung by a stingray

a pity la, i think animal planet is going to show a marathon of his shows one of these days..

i still can't believe it la, haix..

tomoro cat high! but we that time lose la, so hope that this time can do something different.. our turn to thrash them.. haha

and something, i dunno why.. it just isn't the same feeling. but it's still fun hanging out with u all!

zijie just send me jay chou song, i like the piano starting of tiu hou! ALOT

and i've thought of it le, vball is my priority. but i'll also not be quitting soccer, dun come press me again

as for track, i'm planning a fairytale comeback. haha

although it's 99.9% not possible, and my passion and drive for it just fizzles down over time

i wan to stay inspired! for today's trg and tomoro match.. go watch some nice clips

and i think it's time, that i just go and have a nice outing on one of these days..

let's fly!

2006-09-01T10:27:00.000-07:00

sry teachers, i've not gone to primary school to visit u all.

for some reason, TONG HANG U TRICK ME

wah sian, I'M SORRY REALLY

when i knew that they asked for me my heart broke into 2, or maybe many

i promise i'll be back next year, on EVERY occasion.

sry.

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2006-08-20T19:24:00.000-07:00

my mind is clearer since seeing those clips, it is those stuff that help me make up my mind..

get into my way man, u're not going to stop me.

2006-08-09T20:58:00.000-07:00

happy birthday singapore!

thanks

2006-08-03T23:39:00.000-07:00

JUNNIES. i'm so touched.. haix

HAHA..

Wincoln- Started to know him through high jump but what really pulled us together was our love for soccer. During sec 1 and 2, while qihan was slogging his guts doing weights, me and wincoln were busy owning the street soccer court pooooooon. When he still went to high jump regularly, we always played soccer aft training before going to the poolside and treating each other at our whim and fancy. He probably owes me a hell lot of money more than i owe him but i don't care (:

i'll pay u back someday. thanks for that post..

whoooo.. poolside treat here we come!
yeah

2006-08-01T17:10:00.000-07:00

the worries just came and flew off.

for nuthing. I'M NORMAL

yeah..

1

2006-07-31T16:53:00.000-07:00

u noe, i just read tong hang's old post on his birthday again and just feel that i should just start treasuring those that are worthy of before something happens.

and since i didn't do anything for him on his bd, i'll just commemorate him HERE

tong hang, we've been classmates since pri 5.. whoo

and your family hasn't been great to u. so go out there and do something honourable to prove yourselves

great friend u are, funny one too..

and there's the gd luck for wushu and studies. thanks for everything these years

erm,
SEE i dedicated something to U!

2006-07-27T21:28:00.000-07:00

i'm SORRY. i'll just take this ep3 schedule for the following week only.

and i swear that i'll return to the original one. they've bought shirts and i can't say no to the ri match. for GLORY leh

and today, i think i enjoyed myself. a return to the lower sec life with darren and gang

and hong.. haha

/./

2006-07-19T22:52:00.000-07:00

and so, we got triple champs for track nationals..

heard judo got champs too.. and gym got 4 golds

we are owning? haha.. congrats everyone, holidays are here

today, at the stadium.. the atmosphere was great.. everyone cheering on. INSPIRING!

and we saw the rise and fall of many, i was just glad that we got champs and i'm still part of it..
but felt weird when i met and then shook david's hand

for Some reason, i dunno. maybe i've not trained for so long and maybe i should

that MEANS. i'm quite really giving up soccer, although i love it.
anw, thanks to mr ramesh(if that is how u spell it). best to soccer team this week and 4th august.

DUN TEMPT ME AGAIN. if not i'll think back.

haix..

we walked along the same path to cck after the finals and remembered much about last year's nationals.. there was the vending machine which we bought drinks from, the 'walking through the mud' incident and the f***ing macs incident.. haha

qihan and me both state THE point. one year, nuthing that has been achieved. haix..

my dream nationals in high jump. yuk choi, junnies, qihan or me. any 3 of us.

BUT. wayne joel aaron all jumping 17++, so we must work!

ok. jiayou ba.

fuck

2006-07-18T18:57:00.000-07:00

for all the love i had for it, i gave it up.

d

2006-07-13T18:32:00.000-07:00

haix.. i saw keef's personal message and it wrote something like this ' it was the best fight i've ever had, the closest competition i've had'

i knew it was nationals but didn't dare ask him. then ask junnies he DAO me

afterwards still went up to ask him, he gave me the results and the url

he jumped 198cm! wth.. nicoll also.. just that he lost to keef on attempts

and hong chen jumped 170.. got 4th. just feel that junnies should have gotten the chance..

c div, wayne got 1st as usual.. but he didn't improve as much as i expected him to.. i think joel and aaron might just catch up with him..

ONE YEAR HAS PASSED. and i haven achieved anything anywhere.. remembered last year at nationals..

too lousy to bring up le.. WALAO, makes me think of last time lar

i should go jump these few days.. probably. and DUN ask me to take part in next year's csm. i will rank last

anw, HCI leading in all divs! except c div.. but they can win back one

gd luck for every one of the trackers. and also for those in judo..

strive hard! there are always gd moments in every sport. magnificent ones

1

2006-07-11T18:55:00.000-07:00

how to decide.. BUT

i can do it later.. cos i've THOUGHT OF A WAY to bring BOTH things to school with THE SAME amount of hassle..

yeah.. haix..

t

2006-07-09T14:15:00.000-07:00

since when did i say i was leaving vball.. why u all like that..

and i went for soccer on sat NOT because i wan to pon vball or wat. they asked me and i promised them once. that's why i go there

and i missed out the fun you all had during open house..

i thought it over for quite long.. and no matter wat i WON'T leave vball ok

and friend, if that was for me. i didn't dao u, i just didn't noe how to respond to that..

ok, there and here. i might only decide later, but u noe i have already accomplished wat i wanted to do here

anw, today's final.. FRANCE WILL WIN.

hopefully,

y

2006-06-30T00:00:00.000-07:00

yeah, first week going soon.

BUT SIAN, i offended every single teacher already.

u

2006-06-22T15:15:00.000-07:00

i was scrolling down my pictures and then saw some pictures of me training track.

then i went to see the properties and also the date.. 27th september 05

i also saw last year's pw group where kiral and foobei were the actors of our film.. haha

we didn't go far though.. and that pic was even further back at june 05..

IT'S JUNE 22 06 NOW! so fast lar..

i should be quitting track officially when school re-opens.. chen encouraged me to do so.. but HOW

how can i just let go just like that... although i did during the hols by not even going once for their training

and ang didn't call me.. just goes to show how i'm not needed there anymore

i slowly bit my way into vball lar.. that time during end-of-year hols then chen paid us a visit when we playing match i damn scared lar.. he came then talk to coach awhile

i didn't even dare to look at him.. and he noe that i from track

BUT, he's kind enough to let me go

now, i feel ashamed even when i see them online lar

LET ME THANK THEM AGAIN

thank you david, for coaching me patiently and believing in me and not be angry with me
thank you qihan, for being nice even when i'm not and for helping me along the way
thank you junnies, for being my street-partner and for all the squabbling that brought us together
thank you yuk choi, for being someone who laughs along and is understanding

thank you nicoll, keef, bryan, huanzhi, zi qing. for being my seniors

i look back to a great team and i wish all of u success!

haix..

BUT, there's vball!
hope we do well in next year's nationals!

zijie operation successful.. haha

match

2006-05-29T06:25:00.000-07:00

match today.. jiayou and gd luck everyone

lk

2006-05-26T00:43:00.000-07:00

i'll just think back on the past few years and probably compare it to primary school days

1j aka 2j totally rock!
and i really enjoyed the times when we spent during those years.. especially during sec 1

it was carefree everyday.. play.. only till the day or probably 2 days before some test that we start to revise or mug

and the music makes me think of the encouraging times we've had together.. it bonded us.. it was my first class and the fact that the teachers accomodated us amost everytime when we threw tantrums caused us to further slack along the year

and it was inspiring during the sec 1 competiton.. haha

remembered we were 0-3 down, foobei and hong was reminding us about the tottenham comeback game

but we still lost.. haha.. and zijie was writing the f word like how many times on a piece of paper..
i think that was the time mr tan started to dislike me.. i said fuck loudly after we lost

he looked at me and i was without shoes that time.. haha, i must have been some low-down gangster in his eyes..

maybe..

we celebrated, we played, we endured, we shook the stage of that batch of students..

and getting second last in terms of academics is...

..
..
..

1j!!

and only 1d was always behind us lar.. and it was no use no matter how our teachers advise those people to work hard and start getting the grades that would pull us up

cos there's this this young boy named nicholas.. fun to stick with, great to play with.. BUT

he wasn't with us in the 2nd year.. sadded.. he was transferred to maris stella to further his table-tennis career.. or at least something like that

and we lacked the fun and thrill which would wake us up from the boring teachers' lessons

we all bade him farewell and time really tells everything.. i'm not saying that the effect he has on the class is small but we didn't really felt that there was a missing link in our class the next year

then came to sec 2.. it was great to have the system that our class would remain intact for the second year.

and the fact that our form teacher did not change also brought some joy. she doesn't usually control us, we control her

and in came in mrs RUTH ANN. i keep meeting her these days while walking here and there. she would just smile and ask me about my results.. haix

i was lousy performer last year mah.. and she would ask me to sit right in front when my seat is right at the back with zijie

i didnt treasure the time enough.. and it was to be soon that i had to bid my rather bestest friend farewell.. i dunno why it would turn out that i had an affection for both of them.. probably the sport bonded us and we enjoyed each other's company..

even when we are ganging up on one another..

poolside was a regular visit for us and i would just feel sour while thinking of it.. the 2 of us now would not make a team.. we're both waiting for his return.. i think i'll cry when he comes back

or maybe, when i see him on tv.. probably 10 yrs or maybe even 15..

anw, best of luck my friend..

and the year just zoomed past as if it didn't happen.. sec 3 life is not worth mentioning

the class dun really speak as one and i mean it.. i'm sry

and looking further back, there's primary 5-6 life..

would always head for my grandmother's house after school. it's near

and her neighbour's son.. my some sort of play-mate.. we would play together everyday without fail.. soccer com games

it was really free and easy.. hw can be done within an hour or a few.. the most

we would go to the nearby park and get a ball.. the monkey-bar would be our goal-posts! something like school.. it was on sand and it was really fun when we dived and our faces were filled with patches of sand

and that's why i play bare-footed.. i remembered we were caught once by the warden for playing there.. it was a prohibited area to play in but it was our only ground to play in also

there's a house behind the goalposts. at times, our ball would visit that ground.. haha

the kitchen and clothes were the nearest area.. i bet if they had confiscated every ball we kicked in.. they could have sold them for bucks

but they weren't that sort of saint type people also.. they would chase us away at the slightest sound of the ball being kicked around

and i remembered vividly that our ball flew in and pots and pans came crashing down.. haha

we ran of course.. it was really thrilling and fun

ngee ann polytechnic was the place where we would go after playing.. the vending machine sell real cheap drinks there.. 60 cents only

we would drink and play in the playground there.. especially the swings.. i think everyone enjoyed swings in playground when u were young..

haha.. we even try some moves and tricks in and around the playground

a pity, a pity that the management did not allow public to get in soon after... i hated it.. they took away our childhood joy

but we did sneaked in and i remembered.. haha

we were lying still on the slide when the guard came on patrol.. it was raining.. and the guard stood there for awhile before going off

haha. close shave.. i kept on giggling

omg... I MISS THOSE DAYS

now, i'm left with this to consider and that to consider.. just give us hw lar.. no ace no positions to take no extra stuff to do no nuthing

treasure our time, no matter wat we do

:()

2006-05-19T17:39:00.000-07:00

i'm here to complain about the loss in the champions league final..

NOT FAIR.. haix

sian.. they fought hard lar.. or maybe i'm biased

let that be then.. i must see the replay first.. and i inspired lar

feel like meng-ing tomoro in trg.. and YES!!! ouyang coming tomoro.. at least got something to make me work hard

to think we were all so sad last week.. his last training with us we must really treasure it

it's time to be fresh.. yeah
jiayou everyone

`

2006-05-12T01:03:00.000-07:00

farewell coach.. highbury too

thank you for wat u've done for me and i hope that i can do my part for the team

i wish u all the best in business.. it's meng time for the last training with him

and hence, i bid my farewell to highbury too which has been demolished.. i wan to visit the ground!

haix.. thanks coach

2006-05-11T19:53:00.000-07:00

it was really a fruitful day for me today. the csm, prelims 2, solar car, seeing vball seniors that i dunno and the friendly..

i was really dreading this day as there was high jump competition.. and i had been a disappointment since sec 1 for every competition..

it wasn't really one serious one but i was really afraid that it would screw my week up.. and i had a bad feeling about it

i'm sry about wed solar car thing cos i had to go for track.. to see how i can fare today after ages not training..

and it was really fine man.. it wasn't really great or spectacular but i was happy with it. And it was great when everybody was encouraging each other.. keef broke record!

he attempted 2.02m which was freaking high lar

obs suck.. i dun wanna go, and i'll MISS champions league final.. WHY

then i ran up for medical check up which was brief and the nurse was rather friendly..

went to prelims 2 and i was really afraid of edmund teo for some reason.. probably cos he's had a bad impression of me after catching me sleeping during the first round

but both he and teo cc were really friendly during that time and even helped us.. maybe they were in high spirits at that time but watever the reason.. i thank them

this year's csm reminded me of stuff which happened last year's csm.. it's amazing how time has passed on so quickly.. i just hope that there's still hope for me in track

and then we waited for friendly at poolside.. had a nice chat with both andrew and joshua... maybe sometimes they're irritating but i believe that they're gd people down there

i'm sry jiayun, i didn't noe u got so many commitments... i try to do stuff lar..
u dao me i dao u.. haha

feel that solar car thing brought all of us together then apart at sometimes.. it was SUPPOSED to be an activity which will bond us

then dun blame me all for saying 'nothing' next time.. it's a habit

i hope jellyfishes swell up the whole pulau ubin and NO more obs.. since got danger of jellyfishes why not POSTPONE it

haix.. i just love days like these.. i thank you all for brightening up my life

thank you.

ii

2006-04-30T04:23:00.000-07:00

just came back from 2nd week in boarding school.. it seems that time pass super quickly there

and it was hell this week and i'm just glad it's over.. mug like shit throughout but it's gd lar, that there's a place for us to mug and not get distracted.

i saw the different emotions of people in uk when relegation took its toll

i saw sad faces among the fans when birmingham was relegated.. it was really sad to see the young boy crying while eating his burger or something like that

and i saw the happy faces at the other end with fans of the blues jumping for joy while they celebrate their victory of the trophy

and in sports, it's not always about facing and hating the idiotic opponent, it's all about overcoming the fears in yourself.. and something to bond people together

whether u're short, tall, black, white, nice, not nice, it doesn't matter.. wat matters is that u play to your best and accomodate both your teamates and opponents

it's the same between friends, u have to understand that not everyone is made perfect and it's all about the inside

to people who are full of ego, give them a smile and acknowledge that.. to people who are down and out.. give them a pat and help them along the way

and it's all about the passion, i saw rooney running till he fell and got injured and there was really the desire in his veins. the desire to bring his team back up

it was even heartening to see some blues player looking on, worried about him, it's great to see scenes like this

and it just makes me wan to get that place, i noe i started off late, but i swear that i will make it.. i swear man

but i'm stuck between track vball and soccer.. xy gave me the form and it was requesting for me to have a 2nd ep3.. i should just change it to my 3rd and hand in the form

i noe i wan but i can't..

for track, i'm going cos only of those people who have kept faith in me.. i just dun wan to let them down again and again.. david, qihan, yuk choi and junnies thanks alot

and i will pia.. haha, talk big again.. but it is those times when u feel tired and u still manage to do well when u noe it is training to the fullest

and i bear the hope that one day i'll represent school in both ep3s

Hopefully, it will come true.. yeahyeah

sian

2006-04-23T13:33:00.000-07:00

i beg for ouyang to not go.. he go our team gone liao
no tom, dick or harry can just come in and replace him.. never
sian lar

2006-04-16T16:12:00.000-07:00

byebye.. off to boarding school!

2006-04-13T09:57:00.000-07:00

i think this gd friday holiday has come at a really nice time.. everyone needed it

just that tomoro no training liao.. but saturday got! And DUN talk about the weightsroom encounter to me, i dun wan to be reminded of mad people

and also that stupid book, just throw it away everyone.. see also disgusting
eww

i only wish for gd results for everyone this term, and i hope that i can take part in both nationals in sec 4.. i hope lar

and i didn't treat joshua the 2 cups of bandung today.. srysry! Cos he did most of the work for solar car and i saw how serious it meant to him.
but i didn't go down during recess that's why

WALAO, i inspired lar.. for no reason

i wan to jumpjumpjump.. haix

:):

2006-04-10T21:20:00.000-07:00

long time no post.. cos too busy mugging and trg liao

and i believed my mugging paid off and i swear that this term is gonna be a gd one.. i hope everyone does their part to make this term a gd one too

suddenly everyone talks about our team which SERIOUSLY, got a glimmer of hope and i wan my dream team to be fulfiled!

and i hope and plead that our team can come together again, please

and i HATE chem pratical lessons when they start mixing chemicals and everyone start fooling me that i would have cancer and those pungent gases running up my noses

i love it when i see the lyrics of hui you na me yi tian, it's super nice lar

tomoro got napfa and chinese and i will start mugging again soon, i noe i need it.. hope both eehong and me can get A for pull ups!

jiayun also jiayou, zijie dun need lar.. gold liao

kalun kiral gd luck also.. yeah, i'm super super glad now

dunno why.. haha, finally someone granted me a confidence booster

thank you.. yeahyeah

.

2006-04-04T20:33:00.000-07:00

lao tian made fun of us, by looking so dark but did not wan to rain.. sian

then when it finally did, jiayun also came.. we all then went different ways and ruiyang, tek yoke and me went court

i haven played for such a long time lar, we went met iype.. he damn funny, and he can sing super well

later JC s came including bingyang.. he damn gd lar, and their team was like pawning us in everything and I DUN WAN to take part in b divs high jump during csm

cos i'm still deciding whether to use right or left foot, although both are lousy

anw, dun need compete already can predict easily wat the results will be.. i hope our class's relay events get in! then damn shiok lar

tomoro pw, eng, fri maths.. jiayou everyone!

2006-03-28T21:25:00.000-08:00

it's official, i thought of it for very long before consulting or asking david..

i'm going for track training again.. i dunno whether i'm happy or wat now.. but i noe that competition is keen there, darrell joel junnies qihan plus next year wayne

but i'll just try hard, it was keef.. he made me rethink

should i call him a bastard now or should i thank him?

sian

w

2006-03-27T22:28:00.000-08:00

i walked into weightsroom for the second time of the day and keef said that i was a no-hoper

4 words that spoiled my day and heart.. but i must pia pia pia

haha

duno

2006-03-26T19:56:00.000-08:00

sian, weekends so fast over liao..

and it was plagued with the chinese ace that we have to do, although mostly was done by jiayun.. but i think chinese stuff are really time-consuming

and i wish tag's father a faster recovery.. yeah

other than that training during sat, it was all rotting.. i waited till 1 for the match and then it was postponed, but ok lar

i dun wan go school leh, grant me a founders day again.. and i wan one with no pw workshop

tomoro hope it's a slack day, rejoyce!

2006-03-23T20:49:00.000-08:00

erm, thanks everyone

and i happy cos the zhengyang-phobia is gone.. walao today is mad lar

all breaks, even the 10 min one i also chiong out lar.. 2.40 they all grab me lar, stupid joshua say wan help me still go stop me from running..

eehong also lar, but lucky i think that guy grabbing let go lar, for some reason

then run lor, zhengyang siao siao come chase me like mad dog lar.. run up and down the block then saw staff room

haha, of course head towards it lar.. then he gave up, in staff room cannot pull me in front of teachers mah

then jiayun go down, he say now eehong target.. haha

then go up to take something.. then zhengyang there lar.. at first i run and hide lar

later he see me run halfway then ask me come back if not he whack me.. violent lar

i go back then he change back to normal state, then all the way until go home ok liao.. he nver fa feng again

eehong byebye, haha.. just dun scared him then he won't wan to make u

that's wat he and jiayun say

2006-03-19T19:45:00.000-08:00

WAIT.. i'm posting cos the holidays are going soon

sian, although i dun think this week has passed that fast.. but i wan MORE holidays.. haix

kl, ask u and darren go back to darren house lar.. that time u 2 at junction 8 wait

we had some super training for the last 2 days and we lost the key lar, super guilty cos had to make everyone do weights.. and yonglin is damn funny, jiao lian sit there see us. he go adjust the radio to classical one

then he turn around give the thumbs-up, and those around started laughing.. including ouyang

just thinking of school would make me wanna go sleep

o yar, happy birthday eehong..

and i felt weird when i heard that track went to train at St john island.. i dunno why, maybe i still feel part of it ba

qihan saw me training vball when i told him i'm injured.. and it's hard to explain lar

and hope ms lim faster change back the marks, i'm proud of my op lar.. only chem and eng 1

founder's day is on tuesday, yeah got break liao.. ok, term 2 will be gd!

;

2006-03-14T22:25:00.000-08:00

sry, darren kl not my fault ok.. go back please

,

2006-03-09T21:39:00.000-08:00

i was thinking about ep3 when the acsi guy came online with his dp, which was his jump

i think his pb is stilll 165, so if i go back train.. maybe i can pia and catch

and the Pic made me wan to go train track again.. and i xiang tong already

i think i following the plan that ang asked me to follow.. it makes me wan to run now!

hope that my other stuff make this more enjoyable.. and i just have to sacrifice court time
although i dun really spend much on it this year

i feel gd now.. whoo maybe i should have felt like this long time ago

thank you

2006-03-08T23:03:00.000-08:00

i went for make-up 2.4 today and i saw the list for SAAA, i think it's caltex competition..

i saw junyang, qihan, huan zhi all taking part and i realised that i'm really nuthing.. then after school met shengkun in weightsroom, he went talking and say that i should not have quit track blahblah

that 3rd was tyco, the standard dropped like shit.. even i could get it
and i noe that even if i stayed longer there, i wouldn't make any difference

not like i would make any down here also, but i dunno lar..

all these make me feel that i should think back again

i'm forever crippled, thank you

and i have the worst feeling about my msg on friday, just wait and see, almost confirm i would not make it..

i'm messed up

yeaa

2006-03-07T21:03:00.000-08:00

today, haha super fun..

after sabbat go do weights with zijie then play vball.. then jindao zhibin and joshua later come..

then we play and it was super funny and nice

happy note to mark the week.. yeah

in mem

2006-02-26T20:55:00.000-08:00

i'm inspired by huo yuan jia.. zi qiang bu xi mah

last part quite sad and nice cos the european people go poison his tea, but he still continue to fight in pain.. and it was nice to see the jap fighter admitting that yuan jia was the real winner instead of him

i feel like training my fitness now.. i surely lousier now cos so long nver really sweat liao

this time got 2 movies that make me tear, xiao hai bu ben and this.. nice to see the sincerity of people in life and how people treasure them in the end

someone please help me to heal faster i'll do almost anything, shen yi poked me with needles and then say there's blood clot but it's still NOT ok now

dunno why, and i saw joshua's sadness when he got back his math paper.. he just stared into space for the whole of the period..

i'm wondering wat will happen when i suddenly see zhu hui come back to singapore.. maybe it will be 10 years later or even more.. i'll definitely treat him his nice bee hoon but i think after staying in england for so long he would prefer western food

or maybe i'll go over and say hi

and that day ouyang was super gd in his spiking, almost everything set to him.. even when he hou pai... how to lian until his super standard..

i met this guy waiting for poly application in world of sports when i looked for ankle guard.. he work as salesman.. then we total strangers but somehow we could chat quite nice and long

maybe this is something like our characters dun clash

ok.. term 1 over liao, jiayou everyone..

yo

2006-02-23T22:52:00.000-08:00

this week seems to be a bad one but it's ending with a gd tone

cos there's no more tests for this term although there's other stuff and i feel so free

and once i can run, i will go train stamina everytime i can.. i inspired by joshuatan, i must continue to train

and i'm getting fatter after not exercising for just 3 days, i eat damn alot la

my msg i think confirm about 4 liao, i think me and zijie bottom of class.. cos eehong suddenly gd results

sian. and i dun wan to get out of ip.. i think i quitting track straight after everything is over and i still dunno how i'm going to do it

haix.. why can't everyone think on the bright side, jiayou everyone

i just wan to sleep 24 hrs now and wake up to find that it's saturday then enjoy for 2 days then sleep sleep sleep again

i wan to run now.. i inspired by messi, and henry gd goal la

today, zhengyang go crazy start whacking people again.. target me and hong then i found out i COULD run ok, really

o

2006-02-11T21:41:00.000-08:00

talking with zhu hui on msn makes me remember of sec 2

i remember he left for england at 3/9 last year.. early in the morning
i was still sleeping lar, so sry

he sent me a msg before that and i was so really really sad that he had to leave

cos sec 2 life was so damn relaxed, not listening in class, doing last minute work still can scrape through.. and i was playing court everyday with him and junnies

junnies, zhu hui, mj, me and some keeper

then i think i'm starting to miss those times, i think i was closer to them than my classmates
even though we met lesser

sometimes things happen this way, weird but maybe characters clash or something like that

and he says that he's probably not coming back to singapore, makes me wan to go there

it's so relaxed there the schedule, unlike here.. there's 3 soccer lessons and 1 pe everyday i think, damn gd lar

so fast everything just flash past and i'm in sec 3 and i wan my sec 2 life back

pleasepleaseplease.. i'm willing to say it for a thousand times in exchange for the life i've had last year

haix.. now i go court so rarely but i've got to known nice people from vball

happy early birthday kalun

sian. today go kalun house then go back that time hear that auntie repeating 'tissue paper $1' for damn long.. damn kelian lar, then one girl go give her money i think, and didn't take any tissue.. damn nice lar

makes me wan to set up that home now

.l

2006-02-09T21:35:00.000-08:00

today, got back papers and i really must start pia-ing cos jiayun both subjects a1 and me is like behind behind

but zijie worse so must jiayou and also start Now, eehong is like dun really care one
but he got hp so worse

i hate to go school now, all our teachers are really super not nice.. with the exception of ho and ling

and maybe chew, but even the friendly ones have teaching problems, they can't really get the info inside our heads

i hate tan shouting at me, i dun even dare look at her face

and today is one of the rare days where i dun reach home at 8 and look dirty

and JOSHUA, haha.. he 1st guy other than 2j-ers that talk so much to me.. he easy to talk too mah and think he quite ok as a person

go go go, everyone jiayou

hi

2006-02-08T20:50:00.000-08:00

today, better than average day cos got assembly although it was really damn sai and boring... especially the service learning part where everyone was falling asleep

then gd news came when tan came in and said that physics extra lesson cancelled, so damn shiok lar.. cos finally day over with lessons

and then wanted to do hw then also wan to drink bandung so go canteen do.. jiayun wan to go home cut hair one.. but end up go with me and i think i wasted his time

he should have more time if he went home straight.. but nvm, then kalun come but 3 i go liao

cos got track mah, today assembly if i go down and say my situation of track and vball also no use.. cos i noe no use so confirm no use

and then cos of tan chee wee training our legs are like super suan and i hate going down stairs now, track killed me but today performance gd!

they go change the pole lar, then i got phobia cos it's yellow.. di wei superman go break the last pole

but when doing stuff that time leg nver ache so bad liao.. dunno why

sian. now dunno go school for wat lar, learn stuff take exam for nuthing.. in the end grow up still find job see who find better one than gd lor

but i still wan earn lots of money and build one home and build one big house for my family

i got 3 investors and one co-boss, who wan invest?

haha, see first lar... and i wan watch fearless also

fri shuqun, we should be go there and get zham by them till no face one.. and i dunno c divs against bp get wat score, although they did well.. i wan to watch replay if got lar.. cos the coach will be there shouting like shit

let's all work hard! eehong jiayou, got hp so more busy

jiayou everyone

wan le

2006-02-07T21:30:00.000-08:00

so long nver post, cos too busy liao.. that time mug maths like siao

cos maths lesson really cannot concentrate one, ang cc see people close eyes also won't say anything..

i think school is really damn sian now, teachers like ms lim like to niao people so indirectly.. haix
and i thought that i should start appreciating more about the things people do for me

yesterday training damn demoralising, keep feeling that i suck as a person and teammate
i studies abit trying to catch up with others and some teachers really really can't teach one, come in class to wait for bell ring then go out again

i wan to thank jiayun, kalun, tek yoke, ruiyang and zijie for encouraging me.. jiayun esp

thank you all

and today tan chee wee training and i'm the only zi bei one who can't touch floor and do the zi gang.. and tomoro i die, cos i think ang will find me, i sneak away from track

sian, if not i cannot train vball liao.. he surely ask us train until 6 plus one

teach me how to quit someone, in the end i'm gonna fail in both ep3s

i think i today keep on saying wrong things therefore i will not say anything again until people talk to me, i promise.. cos i talk only will say out wrong things

haha, repeating

and geo really screwed, seriously.. so i think this term maybe can scrape through

gd lor.. i wish our team will become gd

chu yi

2006-01-29T20:51:00.000-08:00

i ate alot of yummy goodies today, i'm going to be ice-cream-mad soon.

and it was quite an ok day, great to see lion dance on tv

only bad note was that arsenal lost this morning... haix

cny

2006-01-29T00:01:00.000-08:00

ok, everyone happy chinese new year!

hope everyone wishes come true

inspired

2006-01-27T23:45:00.000-08:00

i'm inspired! to play court cos of ronaldo.. he damn gd

and hope that everything goes well for everyone, thank you

and hope that our team can progress as a team

wire

2006-01-27T21:25:00.000-08:00

yeah, finally cny come.. if not really die liao

cos school is killing me and i damn sick and tired of all the stuff i have to do..
starting to hate it now lar, go school for the sake of vball

and i think tan chee wee's training really quite ok, cos if he keep on training us to jie those meng spikes we should be better.. but normally only some people come

Sian, track is killing me too.. always try to rush the things through but sometimes really no mood to do the jumps and weights, then mian qiang go do and faster run to vball training
i'm sry

at least bian jiang understands me and dun scold me when i'm later than others..

and i'm like lagging behind in studies everywhere, ang cc go too fast lar.. but maybe i too slow cos even darrell leong understands

i'm damn sai lar, i wan to do well in studies, vball and if still possible track.. but i noe i cannot liao

and i miss court lar, school re-open until now only go for one short session

i need to sleep 24 hrs now and i'm gonna eat as much goodies as i can during cny so that i can finally enjoy the peace of no school

ok, today cny celebration then went watch the stupidest animation movie.. then late for training then ouyang not happy with me i think

then he talk to us, we all feel inspired i think then we spike very meng today

then da dui, then darren is the star today.. even coach says he's best defender of the day

darren damn funny, haha.. even coach laugh when he do acrobatic saves

ok, finally, happy chinese new year all!

sad

2006-01-19T21:26:00.000-08:00

today funny day, but sad one for kalun cos he injured mah

school as boring after that training track then vball, ang still dun wan let me go.. dunno why

since i'm so lousy then let me go lar, sian

then tomoro vs CT, we surely lose one.. zhenghua thrash us like they routine training like that

anyway, jiayou everyone

i really enjoyed the dinner i ate yesterday

com

2006-01-17T21:47:00.000-08:00

tomoro, competition.. gd luck

jiayou everyone

2006-01-15T13:14:00.000-08:00

i'm INSPIRED.. after seeing yesterday's 7-0 victory

jiayun's luck was shining yesterday on them.. haha

henry, pires staying and pires is willing to take pay cut.. this is THE arsenal spirit

so nice lar, loyalty is important, money is not

and yesterday jiayun's birthday, thank you for letting us go your house.. our surprise turned out badly

yesterday's training also quite nice, although think some didn't enjoy it.. indoor really damn gd

first thing i reach home saw man u losing, haha
darren.. sad

school boo

2006-01-12T21:25:00.000-08:00

ahhh i'm damn sian now, today busiest day since school re-open

lessons damn boring lar, 2 maths period talk to zijie until dun even know anything about it, physics i DIDn't sleep ok, just closed my eyes whenever she didn't see

i damn scared about monday lar, i scared see team getting thrash

had track weights training and i hate it man, i told him i would come after lessons at 2.40.. then i came straight after that and he SAID i WAS late

wth, like i can fly there in a rocket.. and he threatened me with vball lar, sian
junnies didn't go, wonder wat would happen tomoro to him

went queensway then, we got our jerseys..
yeah

adrenaline works wonders

yuting

2006-01-10T21:12:00.000-08:00

today. quite nice to see bustling singapore is, cos went to bugis and chinatown with my family to get stuff for new year..

and i got to see my aunt super negotiating skills at chinatown, she got 3 customers at a short time of around 10 mins.. pro

i can't wait till friday for next training lar, i dunno why.. haha
but tomoro got excursion and training for track, then thursday also cannot

hc please start on the 'shelter' project, then we'll be able to lian qiu

sian

2006-01-09T21:05:00.000-08:00

sian, teachers are taking this holiday chance to give us hw.. i hate sec 3, someone give me back my sec 2 life please

and someone please stop the rain too, it's draining away all our energy and we can't train properly.. i need to meng lian

it was so funny when ching to said that his new year was tomoro, so must not give him hw.. then ang cc will be giving him loads of them on chinese new year

i was damn pissed at their SO gd admin system when we were chased out after we booked it, thought that there would not be any vball then someone arranged the friendly with ny

and indoor court is so nice, i love it

train

2006-01-06T21:36:00.000-08:00

today school was ok, just found out that ling doesn't know how to teach and ang doesn't know how to spell english words properly.

then training! then play soccer, damn fun..

16th competition liao, and i shouldn't be featuring in ouyang's plans

start

2006-01-04T19:30:00.000-08:00

introducing the funny world of china people.. esp the one we saw today at assembly

he chao funny lar, even singing school conduct song i try not to laugh.. he went down to the mike and say he dancing dun feel natural, wan to learn from professionals

at first not funny one, then when sing finish cny song he hear teacher say that next week got dancing then he do hip-hop action.. HAHA

then the cheese movie that time he go rap the starting part where got eng words moving from top to bottom.. eehong, zijie and i laugh like mad lar

later he turn around tell zijie he very cold for no reason, he damn funny lar

zijie went to see sinseh and his leg i think ok liao, and i just realised 2j really rock last year lar.. kiral, por how, ling yong, chris and tonky must faster join back with us

i'm gonna buy the whole bucket of bandung(dunno spell correct or not) one day

schl

2006-01-03T17:32:00.000-08:00

today 1st day of school.. it was quite ok

i was mistaken by people for jiayun so many times! the teacher call him gossip king.. haha
then when he went to take class list, she point to me and called me jiayun..

i go bang the table lar, i also dunno why i bang

then we were seperated lar, suppose sit together with teamates one.. go consortium assembly that sec 2 cit go talk to me about the coucil stuff, he thought i was jiayun..

we played abit of vball after that.. he look down on me lar, i could sense it
today got arsenal vs man u, should be nice

cos we're gonna win it

happy

2006-01-01T07:20:00.000-08:00

so happy yesterday, go zijie house then so funn.. yeah
marble game, soccer, captain's ball, table tennis in com, majong and Pizza!

i didn't know how i survived the trip to korea, i was really really happy only on the last day when snow fell.. my sis and i play snow throwing.. i felt the difference of really happy and trying to be happy

souveniors later ok? i haven even pack my stuff..
and i grew fat man, my ah ma and uncle both said that after i came back

so yesterday's training with ouyang was only my 2nd, then he teach me not to go tiu qiu.. then we play match with c divs and they really so much better than last time lar

i didn't know wat he thought about me but at least he let me play half-match, he's a gd coach

better than the rest of our coaches.. i dun wanna go school, i wan holidays to come, i wan to go london and see highbury before it closes down

arsenal drew, chelsea win easily, i got nuthing to say about the table liao.. next year win it ba

o yar, wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR.. i yesterday too tired, nver countdown..

i hope the new year will be great for everyone! yeah..

none

2005-12-23T21:22:00.000-08:00

hoping that tomoro can watch narnia.. my friend says it's damn nice
i hope it inspires me

today went to train with only 5 people, end up we play more than train.. we watch Rv basketball match against us, then play soccer for damn long.. haha

darren star assistor, warren HERO scoring the crucial goal.. haha

damn fun, darren did some leg training.. then he run up and down the court.
then we go play lan, i DIDN'T wan to go again but they persuaded until i go.. but we had fun there.. yeah

tomoro also got training... my last before school re-opens so i must go..
whoo.. o yar, thanks darren and eehong for the henry figurine

who wans to bet that arsenal can catch up with chelsea?
ronaldinho is mad..

yu

2005-12-22T20:27:00.000-08:00

today's training quite fun and nice cos at least liu didn't keep on pressing me..
it's better than the LAST one, i hate the last training

maybe today we play better during dui da ba, and zijie and i keep the good record of spiking guo net

yeah... then went watch king kong.. at first me and jiayun dun wan watch one, we wan watch narnia but end up the 2 kls cause us to watch

we both TOO indecisive liao, tomoro dunno whether got training or not...

OUR TEAM IS FALLING, HELPHELP

thanku kalun and jiayun, i next year going to get u 2 even better stuff

yes

2005-12-19T21:46:00.000-08:00

today's talking session with ang ended up quite ok.. cos at least he allowed me to train both

then now is guang ming zheng da at least, see tan dun need run

then went orchard and bugis with friends to see some stuff for christmas.. i too tired le, yesterday watch match... ARSENAL NO chance liao..

i no heart to watch the remaining season

ty

2005-12-18T22:56:00.000-08:00

arsenal vs chelsea is starting soon... i'm wondering wat would happen tomoro

thanks jiayun and junhao, all the best!

too

2005-12-16T23:16:00.000-08:00

sry about not going training today... i just realised how much vball training means to me

compared to track that is, cos i was even debating with myself whether to go at 12 when i reached home from chalet lar...

it was really crap, i didn't enjoy it at all... cos was wandering about the whole night with nuthing to do, drinking tons of tea

daytona funn, there quite cheap...

and kiral thanks for the good feeling when playing soccer with me, just wanna say that i also had fun for the last 2 years playing with u... when u play court esp.. i feel better, that's why i always wan u play court

o yar, ang now damn pissed with me.. i 3 days nver go liao
he's gonna roast me.. and junhao's gonna help me

i wan to train now!
arsenal v chelsea, real madrid

today

2005-12-14T21:48:00.000-08:00

today's training was a super lousy one lar... sry to those who like liu but i think i'll rank him last out of the 3 coaches

at least even ou yang give me gd impression during that ONE and ONLY session with me and the team... and i decide liao

next week i tell him i wanna step out of track and JUNNIES!

byebye... junhao will help me talk to them
at least i think he will, he should lar

tan surely anticipate this liao, cos see me so many times train with vball... then i'm gonna pia trainings to keep up with thierry kiral lin...

yeah.

today after training went plaza to eat with some sian people and then had quite fun there
cos went play arcade and lan... but lan time think both girls quite sian.

and i said i won't mention your name here so i'm going to replace it with a DOT

we ate dinner lar... then Dot was like down there wearing her so BEAUTIFUL sunglasses... and my stomach WAS feeling sort of uncomfortable

maybe it's the gravy..

then took 171 to change bus then Dot come up but either she Dao me or didn't see me...
o yar, the bus was er xin lar... i sat right at the behind corner then suddenly one whole family of cockroaches come out from the seat lar...

think today watching match, see kalun watching or not... yeah

yo

2005-12-13T17:50:00.000-08:00

yesterday went jiayun house with kalun but didn't really did the christmas stuff cos is started by him and kalun...

then they wrapped up 4 presents differently, we went down to learn from jiayun how to rollerblade... haha
went to some parkway connector, there got long space to learn mah.. then we both took turns to rollerblade

at night, we were mostly playing board games and watching tv... then when wu chu cai hong ended, we went home lor
kalun went plaza to find cake for his parents' anniversary...

reached home at around 11 plus lar, the 970 go damn freaking fast.. then watched half of epl highlights... i hate it when i see people scoring against arsenal

went training today, damn tired lar... then deciding whether to go meet up with vball people after that... but then they weren't there anymore, so i went elsewhere lor

haha, just remembered something... today i throw up wallet and catch... then 2nd time ang turned back lar.. looked at me with that sort of face

then i look back lor..haha
later he niao me and junnies like siao lar... david at least would have said sorry before doing so... keep saying we 2 would not have gotten into the team of other schools etc etc... if like that, then why dun freaking let me go??

then i will be freee

i thought of it liao, cos i listening to shao nian then feel inspired to win a place in track wat... but after that i think then decide cannot leh... cos next year keef, bryan, qihan and yuk choi or contesting... then me and junnies abit luo4 hou4, so no chance liao

then next next year, got wayne, joel, qihan

that's why i think i really no chance liao... i too sian and no motivation to go meng lian4 lar... so i now find a way to get out then can concentrate on vball

but still dunno when is the right time to say out lar

just missed epl highlights again... sian
tomoro king kong come out liao leh, i noe zijie wan to watch... ask him later see whether can watch together...

i dun wan go school lar.. but about 2 more weeks only
sianz lar

chelsea v arsenal, see who winner... we must win this if not i really dun have the heart to see the remaining season... c'mon

i find u damn er xin lar... i can do without u so dun think u can carry on attituding

yeah... i'm happy
ronaldinho roxx

no

2005-12-11T09:06:00.000-08:00

today started out badly lar... arsenal lost to newcastle, made me lose some sleep for nuthing..
that gilberto should be sold as fast as possible

i can't wait for tomoro training... and kiral lin not going lar.. maybe soccer time i was the one who caused some pain in him? sry lar
and faster go jiayun house better, i'm damn sian at home now

wee

2005-12-10T21:48:00.000-08:00

let's see...
monday training, tuesday training, wed training, thursday friendly, friday training, today training, tomoro soccer...

my body is Breaking man, but training is really great lar
other than track ones..

and i need to get out of the mess quickly, these few days with vball mates damn fun lar
go out together... darren my gd old companion
jiayun my gd brother

zijie star spiker lar... only one training that didn't spike well, doesnt' mean u next one won't spike well...

o yar, man u out of champions league... i noe now then say this abit lag but i have to say it... darren sry, MAN U REALLY NOT UP TO STANDARD
and ee hong believed van der sar scored... haha

friendly, ny coach niao us like siao... OK Fine, i noob and didn't play much but i could feel that she really look down on us... me and kiral play stuff damn nice

today damn fun man... at arcade daytona and the scoring thingy
everyone was like shouting away lar

jiayun, your that post still sound sad lar...
so... happy happy!

must improve quickly if not cannot get into team... hope so
ignore the time cos my com got problem..

whoo

2005-12-07T01:06:00.000-08:00

i change my mind, 2nd choice not the Kop now but it's the Ibox stadium

i just watched the replay of the rangers v inter game... all the fans damn supportive and makes my heart melt lar
then when the result was 0-0 between artmedia and porto, they burst into tears lar.. so damn nice..

last saturday after training bogeyman go follow me lar, i keep on looking at him then he 1st stop press the bell liao.. end up he 2nd stop after school then alight

lucky me.. tomoro got so-called voting for our new captain with zijie, junhao, jiayun and kalun being the contenders... then i promise junhao vote for him liao

i dunno whether everyone serious about this or not, but just vote if have lar... then hong dunno whether will really go make one captain armband
so hope everything turn out great tomoro
yeah..

i'm starting to hate holidays training scheme now..

haaa

2005-12-01T00:01:00.000-08:00

i love tomoro will be a great daymy family
u have only seen the surface of me brother.

the stuff

2005-11-28T14:41:00.000-08:00

i didn't feel like posting until seeing jiayun's post
i think we all need to sit down and start communicating lar... where got big no. of people think bad about u
i think is me

and sometimes people just dun mean it when they say it
so just forget it

and zijie i hit your wound of course must sorry wat
i guessed i missed too much on the 1st day of chalet

i really wan to play that match on friday, but now that tan saw me and so many track people also did, i dun think i can come out with any excuse that can save me

like wat, i'm sick, still in chalet, i need to help out at home? tomoro when he ask me, should i be nice or just say straight that i wan to be off and out of the team?

chalet was fun, i feel bad being a freeloader
and sry about that, think i should pay

almost totally no communication with ny, except few times with yang yi
dunno why, nobody wanted it maybe

just wanna thank darren, jia yun and zijie
1st day was better than the next, probably cos i stayed up and went around with some closer people

and the sunrise trip with kalun was a total failure.. ending up watching people coming down to fish... we waited for like 2 hrs for the expected beautiful sunrise
but ended up it was not really nice

still noob at roller blading despite pro teaching from my gd brother
tea was my favourite drink there lar, it really perked me up and i drank 4 cups of it at macs
thanks everyone who have done something for me and us

i didn't sleep after reaching home lar, when to raffles to play match
exercise really helps when u need it

training today was quite ok, darren damn funny... eehong also
kai tai sometimes do funny stuff

haha, today someone surf then kaitai go head the ball.. me and betrand laugh like mad
then darren tried a stepover to get past kaitai but end up fall down

middle of match nobody was serious liao, everyone was playing,
and pulling opponents' pants down
we really need someone to control us during training

i'm STILL WORRIED about tomoro, maybe i should just pon but for some reason i just can't put track down... maybe it's because of the friends there
or maybe it's just because i cannot harden my heart and just quit
or maybe it's cos i'm afraid

i dun wan a one-on-one 'chat' with the ang or tan, i will freak out one
i DUNNO LAR
someone tell me wat the heck should i do

i should just go sleep now and stop thinking

i wan to say it out
i dun wan to be in the middle
and U, DUN THINK I'm DOING THIS TO IMPRESS U
i am i, i do things and say things cos that's me
so erase that thing in your heart

i'm sorry

yeahyo

2005-11-14T18:14:00.000-08:00

i freaking can't believe it's already mid november now... wth so damn quick lar

i feel damn suan inside listening to jay's track 6
it's nicer than ye qu for me

junnies latest post made me even more sad lar... thinking about the past 2 years we spent together as a class... i'm not being TOO emotional here lar
just think
other than some, we rock

guess i'm not the optimistic type..
and WTH is henry thinking, still stalling over the contracts

he thinks barcelona is the 'right' choice when there's already 3 blacks and 1 white world-class players there.

i hope some underdogs go win the masters tournament in shanghai
change the situation
nadal and federer so damn dominating
and woods was dissapointing..

my legs ARE tired
my mind is too,
i need some proper rest... one long and perfect
so that i can feel rejuvenated, so long since i've had that feeling..

carry heavy and tired legs to all sorts of stuff and training.. only for them to disappear when i start running, it's funny
just wondering wat's going to be the end of the show
-the wonderful show that revolves around me, track and vball

ok, suddenly i'm inspired
to go vent some anger out... go around whacking some stuff
i need to GROW

meanwhile, some training of weights should be gd
i want to be SKILFUL too, and i dun like being called the bull, the one who pushes to win
i DUNNO LAR

let's go watch movies
yeahh

it's only 2 years age difference u think so much for wat
i can't stop smiling when i feel like too so dun laugh
and i dun do it for the sake of anything.. it is for the main thing

i can thrash u if i really try

dunno.

2005-11-07T10:23:00.000-08:00

day by day just go past like nuthing lar
finally chelsea's unbeaten run is broken by this resiliance man u which also beat US that time
st least the record is still intact

i dunno anything... have been going volleyball training these few WeEks and still dunno wat will happen next

chalet, i noe it's long behind but it was quite ok.. at least free time was abundant
i just skipped another training and my mind is damn luan now

i'm TIRED..
cos of yesterday's match against old boys of Ri

i lasted full 90 mintues lar.. and the pitch was crap
it rained in the morning and everywhere was like mud

we were wearing fulham jersey... haha
4-2 final score but i didn't score... sad

we need to win more
yeah

yeah

2005-10-25T15:56:00.000-07:00

just got back our results and i was just thinking about how short giving out our papers to us was.. and how long our exams seemed to be

well, it wasn't that long actually
but everything's over now

have been volleyball-ling these few days and yesterday HE came.. u noe, that guy who wear half-sunglasses... i was so damn scared lar.. but jiayun asked me to stay calm and play normally
and han made it even worse by keeping pointing at me

i didn't even dare to look towards him wtf
it was SO obvious
i dun really noe now how to tell them that i wanna quit but i HOPE that it can be solved over a peaceful and NOT threatening way

and i'm sry for those in track, i've already considered my chances for representing hwachong but it's not really looking gd so i've decided to look elsewhere... and so nice to find an ep3 that appreciates me

i just hope everything turns out well

.....

2005-10-10T15:35:00.001-07:00

yeah... i'm happy now
-- dunno why.. haha

next week exam nuthing to study cos only got math eng and chinese.. but this makes it even more sian lar
although it's better than mugging like siao

and so many stuff has happened... my happy trainings with them and although i'm in a dilema now... i dun really care

i dunno how to kai kou lar... when i see the track people on my msn i'll think back of last year, then i dunno wat to do liao

i can't expect much lar... i'm already trying my best to keep up so pardon me if i do something funny or wrong... just say it i won't mind

school is boring.. i just keep hoping that it will end quickly always
for some reason- and i'm worried for my mrp, ZERO i'm afraid
then my ih will be f9 then i have a chance to go 3p then i will meet ruthann there then then then

eehong zijie junhao kiral whooo thanks.. especially junhao and zijie
can't admit i dun look like jia yun, at first i dun really liked the idea of having someone looking like me lar.. later, i mean NOW, i feel that he's easy to get along with lar.. he's my 'brother'

still remember last time i so damn scared of going into the team lar... zijie persuade me in class until like it is wrong to say 'no' to him like that
then i went, then i trained, then i want to thank both of them again

thank you

yeah, tomoro watching GOALS! cos that time kiral lin dun wan go watch then nver go lor

whoo.. then kiral lin and me discuss the dream of going arsenal
A DREAM i said
well, hope is in the air

yea

2005-10-03T17:57:00.000-07:00

i'm tired, dead and gone
my legs are itching ITCHING... i wanna play court

but they will just deem me as an unskilful player who only push people around for the ball..
WAT MY FAULT ISZIT?

i'm afraid lar.. afraid of so many things
i just wanna stop school and go somewhere safe YEAH
if i dun get into the team next year i must as well quit man

and how could liverpool crumble like that against the 'might' of chelsea... WHERE's their defence? the defence that kept out so many teams at the start but CONCEDED 6 goals in 2 matches... SOMEBODY STOP CHELSEA BEFORE THEY START OWING

today's science remedial was so funny... shen mu called zijie GIGI for the 3rd time... she just can't pronouce his name correctly... we were waiting for her to call his PROPER name finally after 3 weeks, but she FAILED..
HAha

reyes rock the arsenal match yesterday lar.. actually, it was maik taylor
goalkeepers also seem to be in HOT form during matches against big teams lar... maybe they just get to save most shots the normal

sianz..

2005-09-29T19:51:00.000-07:00

whoo... we played soccer after sooo long.. as a class and on the field
yeah

and i loved it lar... although it was short and damn cramped but at least we managed to do something... hope that tomoro play again
i have to train anyway..

and SRY aran ky and zhengwei- not i dun wanna play with u'all lar... just that in the midst of a rare field game with my class i dun wanna go court
and i think my classmates wouldn't wan to go there too
hope u dun really mind..

and this 2 weeks like zoom past SOOO fast BOO
went to li yier house after that to work on OD... but ended up playing and AT LEAST i did an ace for chinese... we did OD in like 2 mins lar

2* and 2* seems to have a grudge against me now lar... but i think u started it first

i NEED to work out my legs... field training court tomoro
YEAH... and school today was soo damn slack lar... thought double science would be boring but ended up playing some games and time passed so quickly..

i'm in love with zijie send me-the song... o-town-the painter
dunno why..niceee
his specs broke today lar... shufan say he getting contacts... he looked sad and weary while going out of the field..

i need SOME inspiration...
SOMEONE INSPIRE ME TO DO SOMETHING
ronaldinho rox llar
fifa football player of the year... hat-trick hero...
whooo gee

shit

2005-09-20T19:00:00.000-07:00

now i'm really not sure about wat to do... my mum's for bowling lar
just cos i think she thinks that it's not that tiring
but i will remain in track lar
sry all..

ep3 problems..

2005-09-20T16:08:00.000-07:00

everyday just seems to past by like nuthing.. i HAte exams that are coming so soon lar... it's just after our 3rd term
so damn fast...

i have this ep3 problem lar... volleyball for the sake of zijie but..
basketball and bowling... but i've thought of going nowhere else and fight for a place but still not sure if i can do it lar

zijie yesterday persuade me until i found it hard to resist but there are many things i've got to think of... 3 things keeping me to stay in track- u, u, and the place for glory
but the road out of it is hard and i've really decided now but not going to say here...

not sure if basketball would get a damn playing spot and bowling's competition is too near seriously if we wan to compete..

sry, i thought of leaving.. so i promise u, i'll not leave ok
well, yeah i wan glory moments.. those when people clap for your efforts

and i've sorted out where to head to..
yea

court

2005-09-12T18:32:00.000-07:00

HOLS over

damn sian lar

played court today.. formed team with usual people and got damn frustrated with the play lar

so sorry.. i was playing quite bad also so damn pissed
and i said that cos i MEANT it not for the sake of saying it
i was really surprised wat

didn't really get into the really really crazy mode that i hoped to get... SIAN

hoping that module tomoro get decent results.. i was the JINx lar
of all the teams i be keeper for, all lost i think
other than that blunder

at least we found a replacement

bye..

2005-09-03T16:00:00.000-07:00

this post is for zhu hui lar... if u think it's LAME or wat shit then just buzz off
i had my great times with him and junnies. not like some others who like to make fun of him always(sometimes i do too, but i always try to lessen it OK)

he's going tomoro man... i'm going to miss the favourite team i've felt best playing at court
-junnies
-aran
-zhu hui and meeeeee yeah

keeper can just find some guy come play..
yesterday was the last time probably i'm going to play court with him and i of course SKIPPED hands-on-session for that
anyway, she came so damn late man... he had band at 2.30 so i did not want to waste time
and she crapped so much before giving me my report... i just got below 4 for my msg... gotta work hard man

we formed team with reuben, xingyun and some guy i FORGOT... sry
we were playing well lar
i loved the one-two i played with zhu hui, BUT I FAILED TO SCORE... my left foot lar
this sucks man... i really wanted to give my best to the team lar... but later we conceded a really shitty goal
think it's my fault.. the ball rebounded off the wall and i just stood there watching
wtf
JUNNIES HOW COULD U BE NOT PRESENT. U SAID ON MSN U WOULD COME

sometimes even when u noe that the opponent is gonna intercept, u will still make the pass.. i dunno why

damn ortus nite prevented me from going kap with them... and there was it.. the last time i would see zhu hui for some time
he was holding on the some musical instrument-a trumpet i think

and i really regretted going for ortus night... there wasn't attendance and i should have just ran off... i didn't really enjoyed it although there were some funny performances

so byebye and hope that u have a great time there..

byebye

2005-09-01T17:33:00.000-07:00

it was teacher's day celebration yesterday and i wouldn't say that it went out as bad as i thought it would

had a frightening experience at coro but dun think i should talk about it
in case of evidence..

after that went back to pei hwa saw huan zhi and i dun wanna say wat happened in the staff room... ms loh forgotten about me?? haha
i dun reallly care anyway

we were searching for a lan shop that would take us in but it was always going to be quite impossible on the eve of holidays... walked everywhere before everyone settled down for a meal at macs

jin kang played a damn funny trick on xihong
haha... asked him to put his hand on top of the curry and chilli sauce... say got bubbles coming out... then pushed his hand on the sauce
so damn Funny

we wanted to go rent dvd but the shop was MOVING
then we went to warren to play bowling... and t0ng hang, u dun suck lar

tomoro's bio test just spoils everything
damn sian lar

tong hang, me and zhengwei discussed about our future home for those people performing on the streets... damn ke lian...
on the way home i saw many people crowding on one area near the bus interchange
it was the granny, who was sellling tissue paper there... she fell, hurt her head

some kind people when there to give her treatment... think there was blood on the head too
i couldn't do anything anyway, there was too many people there
this makes me even more want to set up the home

well, mugging time

o yar, zhu hui's going on sunday... he's significant after all...
i just wanna say thank you for everything... our team will be broken without u
just wish u all the best in england

..d

2005-08-26T10:31:00.000-07:00

not that i'm evading or wat but thanks douglas for putting me so up high.. i really bu4 gan2 dang1..

and u're really damn qin2 at track wat so dun deny it.. gd luck in achieving all your targets

sabbaticals are finally over after this week and it was damn slack... we had a great time playing poker on the last day while he was comparing our 'good' products
there were many funny ones like the spongebob robot but i had to face training soon again

i met iype while going to canteen and we went to court together.. wonder why junnies didn't came today, it's very unlike mj to come without him

i was getting frustrated at having to train under the hot sun while others can get back after we played street for almost 3 hrs... i was too tired to move my legs after that
with ang sitting there and bryan trying to keep things in order, we just had to go jump several times

qihan was crossing every high height and totally mad..

and it was worse remembering wat happened at court
i was totally off- and i just couldn't perform as well as other occasions..

well, hope that the weekends can grant me some needed rest..

there's still a freaking module test on friday and i really hate it man
have to mug for it soon anyway

sux

2005-08-21T14:21:00.000-07:00

let's recall.. last week was a total shit for me
got back many results, i think all..
saved my maths from f9 to c5..

i'm just happy that my msg is below 4
ee hong got 1.8.. abit unlike him

i was the target of those useless shit again and i really hate it
just dun come saying that u're ***** and i hate it
and u, it is really really unpleasant to noe that people are talking behind your back..
worse still, right at your face..

i witnessed how people can just chase u out like that and feel not sorry
i saw the sorry look on his face and really pitied him.. but i couldn't do anything
really sry..

he and he said that it was not good to blog online but who cares man? as long as u dun go leak out the person's name nuthing will happen... come'on, wat else do u wanna say? the more u say it, the more i wanna defy it
i'm stressed

u think i dunt noe? U and U are guilty
sometimes i feel that u are ok.. but sometimes, i dunno wat to say about your words that u blurt out.. i dunno whether it is intentional or not, but i dun have the time and brains to think about it
so just stop it..

last friday damn tired cos played street before training then after training played somemore till 7+..
we played against JCs and they underestimated us, we went on to win the next 3 matches till junnies made an error-it was getting dark, he wasn't wearing specs... they were laughing at me when i was keeper... i thought that i looked abit clumsy but they got a shock i bet after i played outfield...
dun EVER EVER underestimate Us

arsenal lost to chelsea... i dunno wat to say about that shitty and damn tyco goal
didier drogba
sadded

today sabba quite ok lar.. in the end learnt quite alot of things

tired

2005-08-19T21:13:00.000-07:00

i'm too tired to post lar... tomoro shall post the shit and the non-shit happenings during the week
sianz..

this sux

2005-08-13T12:33:00.000-07:00

yesterday really dampened my spirits.. i hate all this
i tried to be happy but just could not stop whining away.. too bad man

i had to be one of the five failures for maths and to take a re-test on monday
my msg is like near 5 now.. this really suck man
i thought i could vent some anger at court so i went straight there after school only to see nobody there except the JCs people

i went all the way back to call junnies and minjian to go... and they went
we waited quite long before those not-so-friendly people went off with their ball to go for lessons
we remember that there was a ball, but a torn and tattered one behind the fence and it was still there.. we took it and played although it was so damn deflated

later zhenghao came but went soon and we played against some pro-ed people before he went off... one of them's pants split and he kept on saying 'my pants split... my pants split...'
that did broke a smile on my face for the first time after knowing that i failed my test

later chengzu and his gang came with a much better ball
a Jc guy also came but he joined them and they gave us 2 players that not-really-noe-how-to-play-soccer and of course we were struggling with their play

but later zhu hui came and we played much better... i could not go damn meng people
not that i dun wan but my legs just won't carry me.. and my mind wasn't pushing me too
i hate this man..

later when we were knocked out, junnies and all of us decided to really really go play properly and when it was our turn, i ran and ran and ran..
although i knew that i had to save some energy for track but i didn't care much about that

we were supposed to be knocked out again when that guy scored a tyco goal but chengzu's gang helped us by saying that it was not a goal... fat zhu had to say that it was a goal but in the end, we continued..

we knocked them out soon after that
i was really mad now
damn angry with myself i dunno why
i just can't stop thinking about that test i hate it man

i got ole-ed once by that Jc guy and i was glad that junnies and the rest didn't start laughing... i thought they would really make fun of me, especially zhu hui
but they didn't..

i ran after him and whacked the ball away... he's not going to get past me like that-that bastard-that shit-that arsehole-that....
we played till we were late for track and i dun care
i wasn't going to go now even if it was time to go cos i damn bu4 fu2 that guy
i kept on marking him and i loved the moment when he was keeper and junnies pass the ball to me..
i just smack the ball into the goal and saw his damn helpless face... LOSER

track was even worse.. our training was quite a nightmare and my legs are now like wobbly jelly.. i was already tired and when i went there, we jumped very few times but did frog jumps like shit and ran so much too

later ang come kaobei kaobei and say that friday cannot take umbrella and wants to take the 'b' divs in hand... ha-ha-ha just go away man..
only qihan was in hyper-mode and all of us were dying

even junnies was too tired to play soccer after that
we went kap and i was dead tired
still must study for retest.. but can't really blame anyone
i still need chinese ace and my job is done

i just wanna shout my loudest SOR but ben was there, i couldn't..
it was my youngest sister birthday yesterday.. my aunt also gave birth yesterday, but yesterday was still a shitty day for me..

have to go study now.. this is just not my cup of tea

aceace

2005-08-10T20:46:00.000-07:00

hols for like 3 days just passed like that lar... so damn fast
i dun feel like going school yet man

monday's carnival was totally crazy... waterbomb everywhere and end up almost everybody went off before leaving the few of US to clean up the mess... sry if u feel bad about this

some people say that he can only settle for b3 and preparing for 3p when his msg is like 2++... dun try to kid people lar
end up marks higher than all of us
the soccer tournament was quite screwed and we made a damn freaking mistake and got kicked out... owww... and just because u TURNED ME ONCE u think u damn zhai but NO... i somehow let u turn it on purpose... i noe that sounds ridiculous but i dunno how to phrase it so SCRAM

I WANNA PLAY STREET
i'm playing tomoro... my legs are itching
i wanna go meng people

i played 4 hours of lan today... damn nice
but tomoro have that lit test which spoils everything... this sucks man
jue dui superstar is on now... watching it soon

o yar... tagboard's getting cold now so go tag it
thanks

dota's getting boring now... played enfo survival and completed it like once out of 5 tries
haha.. damn fun
School Spoils Everything

go tong hang's blog... his post all sad story go read

suckers

2005-08-05T10:46:00.000-07:00

i damn sian... have to rush ace now but just dun feel like to

my arms, legs, neck and chest is aching like mad now after yesterday's training and bball playing
even when i'm lying down and can feel it... this is crazy
i played bball before and after training and during training, we did 60 pumpings almost continuously and i got cramp on my tummy while doing crunches... ouch

while we were playing bball, i was really meng to vent all my frustration and anger...
i loved one of my movement when i put the ball to my right then keef thought i was gonna shoot
he then jumped with all his might to try to block me... haha
i shifted to the left and shot... chop Yeah
i'm NOT boasting ok... i just loved that moment cos someone keeps on putting me down

school is boring and i can't stand it anymore
he is gay and i can't stand it anymore
she is biased and i can't stand it anymore
she is ugly and i can't stand it anymore
she is kao bei and i can't stand it anymore

he is one who doesn't noe how to talk properly and i can't stand it anymore
EveryOne doesn't like dark people and i can't stand it anymore
she thinks i'm acting dumb but i dun give a damn about her
some people are so fake and thinks i can't sense it and i can't stand it anymore
some people goes off in a rage when i meant well and i can't stand it anymore

i HATe this... i need a new environment where everyone treats each other with respect... not making fun with each other
some makes it even worse when he/she goes off laughing like mad when i'm the one being made fun of..

i'm tired.. i dun wanna fight with u all anymore
but RememBer, i always meant well

SOMEBODY GIVE ME ACE!!

finally...

2005-08-04T17:46:00.000-07:00

'not that i didn't try my best to make u drink water from the well, i've tried my best but if u insist on not drinking the water, then i have nuthing more to do...'
quoted from the great and mighty person who is teaching emily of emerald hills now

ok... u tried but it's not that we dun wanna drink the water, it's that the water is too murky and dirty to drink... not our fault rite
FINALLY... it's time to Really Relax... no more tests in consecutive days and next week is another slack week with national days stuff giving us a 3-day break before pw finals giving us another break..

although thursday dampened my spirits as there is lit test
i'm tired man... i'm missing a good's night sleep this week

but i'm quite worried about the tests that i've already taken...
maths, i'm prepared to fail quite terribly
history, i wrote out of point and too short
geo was easy.... haha
then my bio, chinese and com studies all overall get B3... i'm quite happy about bio

i'm enjoying every moment of slacking now
NO MOre TESTS!!! actually still got lar but the most stress part over liao..

after com period today when to play bball, it turned out to be a frustrating one for me.. all cos of myself not being able to finish properly and fat zhu who keeps putting me down
the wet floor wasn't doing anyone favours and that stopped me from being very meng to him

well, anyway, it's time to slack and play... YEAH

tests sux

2005-08-01T16:05:00.000-07:00

go check out the commotion..
go... who's the mastermind? puzzled? a change of topic perhaps?

I MISSED MY PRIMARY SCH00L DAYS, it was when i could heck care about hw and play all day... best of all, i could play soccer everyday but now, the only shit that is on my mind is those tests and ace

SHE is a bastard, i dun wanna type the word 'bitch' out cos it seems too vulgar for her... por how threw me the b00k and she just confiscated it... wth?? it makes no sense at all lar, i wasn't like doing something else during her time

in the end got her shit punishments again
I ONLY WANTED MY EMILY OF EMERALD HILL!

a story? one day a boy went to his friend's shop and place some not-so-clean stuff there, he then posed as someone to prevent from being found... but he was stupid enough to leave some finger-prints there... PLEASE... there's something called technology now... U Think U Can put Something There Without Being Found Out??

tomoro maths Term Test and ZIJIE, dun despair lar please... dun give up before the fight
gogogo

tong hang and kiral had such gd analysis ability that they analysed out that studying is not important, those that study work for people and those that DUN, are bosses... well, not all but there are QUITE a number of them
it's a fact lar... wat we need to learn the types of forests and shakespear and all the shit for? wat we learning them for? who noes?

got to study now, BOOO

school sux

2005-07-28T17:51:00.000-07:00

This 2 weeks have been quite hectic and next week would be even worse.. for some reason my temper has been sort of quite bad and OK i'm stressed

tomoro chinese test and i'm still like just starting to look at the notes... THIS SUCK

my group made the most freaking damn worst presentation u'll even see today on a not-so-stupid topic... we were supposed to meet the teacher yesterday but i was the only one not present as I've REALLY got something else to handle... i needed to play host, and the ppt wasn't going to be our product for sure

she was like down there making assumptions by herself again and blah blah blah...
and then there was SHE,
who showed how NOT-biased she is by choosing marvin when jun yang and others were like down there raising their hands for so long

all-star match was like so screwed

damn it... looks like hope can't save me now
training starts TOMORO and i haven had enough rest man
i'm stressed... have to learn chinese now

sry to all who i have vented my anger on

nationals!

2005-07-12T20:11:00.000-07:00

1ST, HCI ROCK
2ND, WE ROCK
3RD, HCI TRACK&FIELD ROCK(kinda lame but who cares?)
(i'm talking cock here so just ignore me if u think i am)- i mean the whole post too

ok... it didn't turn out as bad as i feared, but it was quite an embarassing height for my position
skipped some lessons today as i rested for nationals as instructed too.. moreover, today lessons all useless to me, i wouldn't be listening even if i had gone to school
(please do not use the word PON cos i wasn't really pon-ning o-k)
i grabbed my shirt and stuff and set off in the morning... reached lot 1 about 11 plus? then we went to eat and then... off to the stadium!
my heart wasn't exactly beating like siao but my hands and legs were rather cold... reached soon and rested rested rested...
well, think i should just go straight to the competition anyway... it was not something to be proud of from a personal view BUT from our school's point of view, this really ROCK man
ang was there and tried to put some pressure off us by saying that he would be satisfied already if our school got 1st,7th and 8th... but i think if we really got those positions, he would really kill us...
and of course, david was there to oversee us and really really appreciate that man...
then it all began, starting height was 148 and i had to admit that it proved to be the stumbling block for many, wayne skipped height as it was to noob for him, then qihan was really really unlucky to not cross it first time- his leg hooked it... but he made admends by spare-ring the next attempt beautifully, then i also crossed it on my 1st attmept(left with acs guy, zam, 3 HCi jumpers and one jumper each from victoria and SJI)
next, it was 153... wayne skipped again, qihan crossed on 2nd attmept(or is it? i forgot liao.. sry)and i tycolly crossed it too... i mean really tycolly as the bar was shaking when i tried to rush down to mat... ( left with 3 hci-yeah, acs guy and zam)...
158 next( ok i failed here i noe i really suck at this and this is very lousy for a 3rd but...)
ahhhhh i was really scared when i failed the 1st attmept and then my 2nd too, qihan crossed on his 2nd, wayne 1st attempt( he sat across), then i still fail my last attempt but quite lucky, my first 2 heights attmepts helped me... yeah(qihan and wayne left)
163 was a fast height as both qihan and wayne both crossed on 1st attmepts
166 then, qihan could have crossed it but somehow his curse of 163 came back again and well, wayne was the champ...
then 170, wayne crossed on his 3rd attmept( he was really half-sitting and looked like he was abit playing)
175 or 179? not sure but wayne failed his attmepts and it was starting to rain anyway.. HCI won... yeah!
o yes! there was this 79-year old man who was talking to us about measuring the angle of our feet where we take off stuff and he was quite hilarious... he seemed experience though..
this year's standard really dropped ok... i was quite happy with my position though
finally it's over...
we went to eat again and this is the funny part... we were bombarded with the f word from people sitting behind and in front us... the men behind me were like talking so loud with those f words... i nver heard so many of those words in a conversation before... haha
he had at least 3 f*** every sentence and we were like laughing down there... lol
couldn't see that he was so vulgur if u looked at his face
headed for home after that and the only think on my mind was our c divs
HCI GOGOGO yeah... haha

dunno

2005-07-11T19:08:00.001-07:00

this is hell... am i scared?? i dunno... ahhhhhhhh i dun even noe if wat the hell am i feeling now
no wishing no thinking but I CAN't really stop thinking about it
arghhhh i need some help
wat to do?? wat to do?? BOo! i'm not feeling anything... YES
ok.. i'm mad now
wish everyone gd luck now
ok.. i'm wishing again

crazy

2005-07-02T13:35:00.000-07:00

' piang pong' the bar dropped again... i'm almost certain that i did everything except tai tui right this time... but i failed to cross again... to make matters worse, junnies was crossing the height consistenly and i think ang is frustrated with me now
it's end of term 3 wk 1 already and my problems are adding up
my spirits were still ok when school started all over again on monday but after just 1 wk... i feel like i'm... dunno how to say lar
academically, i need to do some catch up but some bastards just dun wanna teach me
my mrp's still a big fat ZERO and i think nancy tay is just playing around with us... my pw is not done and nationals are just round the corner
i fear the worst-case scenario
i think i'm immune to the feeling of not crossing high heights already.. if one day the bar nver drop after i jump, it will feel funny to me, seriously
this week has been quick slack though... the introduction of gohyy, mr lee as our new subject teachers is becoming a nightmare for me... one has a bad impression of me since the first lesson, the other i dun understand wat he teaches in class... well, the only remedy for me now is having fun..
yuk choi, having came back from hong kong, junnies, bing yang and me had a really great talk yesterday... bing yang was giving the speech of course and we were just sitting there admiring his words about success and although sometimes abit exaggerated, we did enjoyed the talk
and there was david, who keeps on saying that i can do it thanks
it was when junnies and i were playing street(shhh... i'm not suppose to play as nationals are coming) that i nver thought of anything... that time, junnies told me his mind was clear, and so was mine
we decided to carry on playing even when it was getting dark and still went to poolside for a drink... i wanted to cry out loud and thank everyone for your faith in me.. at least some, not all
okok... i noe i'm sort of crapping here so if u think so, dun blame me
haha... i'm happy now very..

nationals..

2005-06-17T17:36:00.000-07:00

term 3 is gonna be mad and even hols are going to be gone soon
saw qihan's so amazing's 4600 word post and even by reading it i could feel the sadness in it
ok... first things first

nobody would expect nationals to be actually so near! i was walking towards huan zhi today when they were chatting and nicolle said that the b divs finals was actually 11th july! i later found out from the slip that the c divs finals was on the 12 of july! that's freaking close and i'm not really ready for it

bryan came in and told us something on qihan being spiderman! haha then everybody was wondering wat it was all about and i didn't really get it till i read that post

i'm soon going crazy from playing lan this week as i've been playing for like a total of 8 hrs this 2 days

first, let's see wat's on term 3

Mrp submission on 12 of july- same day as nationals!
Pw on 11th? somewhere there lar
that means on the 3rd week, i'm gonna break down... it's totally madness!

and i'm nowhere near finishing my mrp and pw! this is going to be tough

o yes! my phone, it was freaking stolen by this white shirt guy when i was engrossed in lan... i should have noticed him when he lurked there but i thought he was interested in the GAME... wtf man... this guy is pro-stealer, 2 other phones also got stolen... lucky getting another sim card was free and i got my old phone back

he's gonna sell my phone for bucks now... and that's wat hurts me nost... arghh

...

2005-06-13T15:54:00.000-07:00

this post in made in honour of our great high jump team of HCi
firstly, no offence here, if i ever offended u, SRY... didnt mean it
secondly, i am just speaking the truth and or watever i think so if after reading this stuff u bs or sumthing like that, it's NOT my fault
thirdly, this is for me to voice out my happiness and unhappiness
lastly, SRY if i missed u out

ok... listen here... me noe i'm not a great or impressive high jumper but just wanted to sort things out

our squad for c divs: wayne, qihan, junnies, me, joel, zi keng, aaron

b divs: nicolle, keef, bryan, huan zhi

firstly, some descriptions of the great and hopefully champions of the nationals for 2005

wayne: born-to-be-a-jumper he does triple jump and long jump too... looked at his triple jump today and it was damn zai... think he's gonna beat aran soon too.. but quite kao bei
and he's only sec 1
qihan: zai guy who rock in both his studies and sports
junnies: soccer freak and touch hair guy
me: nuthing
joel: tan2 tiao4 li4 chao1 qiang2 guy... almost touch the pole in school field
zi keng: a pain in the neck
aaron: nuthing to say
nicolle: one of the better seniors in terms of attitude other than bryan
keef: pro-jumper but attitude
quote from him that i would not forget forever ' this year our c divs suck... we get 1st, 2nd and these 2?( referring to me and junnies) 20th?'
i APPREciate that motivation keef
bryan: ispark pro
huan zhi: tall freak<1.9m>

after training today, looking at the video david took while i jumped, i realised that i've been lying to myself all this time... i always believed that my target is not far, but it is, and i dun have much time

with people that like to always put down others, how to even do stuff properly? i was doing sit-ups when suddenly he popped up and start saying we(junnies and me) suck at everything... for no reason he just mention my name and change it into other wield stuff and make everyone laugh at my name... he thinks it's funny but to me it's not...

and with people who runs around madly saying that 152 is VERY HIGH but starts trying to scissors it... i really doubt wat he says

and since some bastard slide me in all star match my leg still hurt whenever i press my right foot too much

ok... enough of this nonsense

junnies just came back from chalet late last week and i missed training last friday cos i had to renew my passport... we both came today and well, weren't really jumping like mad but hands were aching after doing 60 pumpings altogether... i touched the soccer ball for the 1st time afterwards in 2 weeks and it felt quite ok

during training all of us were resting inside the umbrella and talking cock when david mentioned about the U ping2 dao4 jue2 dui4 superstar. The woman who sang like a mei2 hua1 and then in the end do a kissing sound is famous liao... we laughed like mad... ang was using his old tactics again-- telling the sec 1s that he would give them some reward if they touched the rugby pole

i told them that it was his old trick and for some reason 1 sec 1 laughed for damn long

it wasn't that funny, was it?

well, it's halfway through the hols and i haven done anything... for some reason i feel now that hols are actually quite boring... anyway, school will come soon..

2005-06-10T12:14:00.000-07:00

2 weeks of hols gone... last week's training is already killing me and my legs are aching now

other than some interesting lan games and visits to friends' house, the rest of the hols have been rather boring...

yesterday was the mizuno wings competition.. well, it wasn't as bad as i feared but it was worst than i hoped... i took 2 jumps and went home...zzzzz 'zero fighter'

surprise surprise, wayne also was unheighted, but he looked as if he was playing a fool all day

keef won in the end by attempts... a sec 3 winning a under-17s event?? haha... qihan jumped 163... or rather failed to cross 166 by just a little... his jump for the 163 was damn nice... everything just felt in place... somehow i loved that jump for no reason, just felt that it was nice nice nice

my thoughts were only on tai tui at that time but still failed... i just can't do it

well, traintraintrain we gotta win the c divs yeah

liverpool amazing comeback

2005-05-26T18:42:00.000-07:00

this term is coming to an end soon and nationals are creeping near...

champions league final... liverpool amazing comeback made me feel that no matter wat the result is on the scoreboard, as long as u continue battling, nuthing can stop u... even at the end when u lose out, it's ok...

they were 0-3 down and 2nd half stevie inspired them to a great victory... yeah

watched the whole freaking match... lost hope were regained

some good news to share... i'm in nationals, but at the cost of losing one friend participating... junnies sry... not my fault ok?? it's that bastard's fault... thrash him next year TOGETHER and next next year... dun mean any harm or offence...

some retard have to go rub salt onto his wounds...

just hope my leg gets better now... somehow i can run and walk without pain but can't lean onto something against that part...

tomoro chem test... well, dun wanna elaborate on this topic... after that eota and hopes everything goes well for everyone...well, almost everyone

camp camp camp

2005-05-13T16:19:00.000-07:00

just came back from camp and just felt like blogging

last 2 days passed reasonably quickly and somehow the camp felt short to me in the end

overall had some fun moments but when everything died down it seemed like nuthing

it was quite warm in the heart seeing everyone in class working together during the camp... at least at most of the activities... remembered that 2 days ago still thinking how long it would be before this camp would finish... but now everything is over

activities(to me)

best: campfire of course

shittest: stuff related to tents-pitching, striking

funnest: playing cards in tent

dirtiest: nature rumble

stupidest: anything related with tents again

although sometimes will not feel quite good but still managed to enjoy some moments of the camp, thanks to our great instructors

first day to me, seemed to be longer than the 2nd day... dunno why... at night ee hong down there snoring haha, all of us didn't really sleep well

then yesterday straight away go river challenge... before that play cards at jun yang tent for a while... although get wet but still ok lar... in the end we all get to splash polar bear for revenge- he keep pulling and changing direction of the rope... we really splash him like siao and it was damn fun although some others didn't really participate

then nature rumble really is kanasai... stupid damn mud end up we all whole body mud and some people keep calling me 'chief'... just cos i'm dark

campfire really touched me... everyone cheering for everyone... it was like a great atmosphere although the no. of people there quite small

didn't expect our really really short item to amuse the crowd...

then at night our tents invested with those freaking annoying ants, ah hong and i keep using the insectisides to spray all the ants... later everyone just sleep and dun care

today morning at last part everyone should at least felt emotional for a bit... at least... cos polar bear these 2 days really helped us alot and we shared fun moments although it was a short time... later debrief for last time everyone cheered and sang together for the last time... yeah

reached school quite early, didn't realise how tired i was until i lied on my bed at home...

home sweet home

2005-05-09T17:14:00.000-07:00

saturday sports day keef broke record jump 188cm... later he jump 191 that time his 3rd attempt damn high, could have crossed, but didn't

he beat nicolle ok, then he was giving excuses like he was sick his leg suan... but think he was really sick... fever but, not my problem

then 4x100m our class got 4th! i think... yeah

after that had all star match... we won 2h 1-0... china vs japan... haha

yuwei scored for us... then i got injured and subbed out, dunno which bastard slide me... limping now lar...

today went to those tui1 jiao3 shop at west coast and the woman rub so darn hard... so darn pain lor... rub about 15 mins then i almost wanted to shout out liao then she stopped, ask me try walking... then later at least felt better

camp coming in 2 days... hope my leg recovers in time and everyone will enjoy it...